Better day….improvement over the prior day. I did break down and spent about 15 minutes researching something I just couldn't take anymore. I needed a mental reprieve from the constant battle, and the subject was driving me nuts. I got home early from work, was fried after a stressful day, and decided I needed a 15 minute break from it all. Once I was done, I felt better, and was productive the rest of the evening.
Stress seems to be a contributor to my 'internet need' so to speak. Seems that when I become stressed, where some resort to food or alcohol for comfort, I must use internet and mindless games to escape. Not a terrible terrible vice, but definitely something I need to keep in check. Too much internet/TV = more stress because I don't get things done. So just need to stay in control of the time when I come out of this challenge. I have considered several options….likely I will limit access to after a particular point in the evening (say after 7 pm), or limit it to a particular amount of time each week. As I get closer to the end of the 30 days I will hammer out the details a bit more.
Other then my 15 minute break, was a good day. I didn't have any mistakes, felt better about the challenge, and later in the evening again did some mild meditation and worked through some thoughts about my career. I seem to be 'finding' myself so to speak, and I find that to be very odd. I seem to be putting some pieces of a puzzle together about me and my strengths in my career, and how to make those positives work for me in making my job more satisfying. I also seem to be developing more confidence in my ideas, which I am starting to attribute them to a lack of access to internet research (it’s a stretch, but continue reading).
Previously, if I had an idea, my first response would almost be to see if someone else is already running with that idea…or to look up additional info on my thoughts. In the end, I believe that stopped my own personal thought process on the subject, and I would incorporate my idea with someone else's thoughts, and progressively that thought process would fade as my own, and belong more to someone else. By breaking that cycle, I can ponder my thoughts longer, put into action some of these ideas, and work them as they fit into my personality. In turn, I think my confidence is growing because of this. Very interesting turn. I am not saying this is a 100% rule and the only cause of confidence increase, but its definitely looking like a large part of the package. Possibly avoiding google and research on personal ideas until after I have put more time and action into them would not be a bad idea.
I am repeating almost every evening some of the thoughts I have had, trying to remember to stay on track with those work action plans, and I believe I am making some progress. I have also come up with many ideas of how to work for myself instead of my current employer….but still be paid by my current employer. In essence, doing the job I am paid to do, but doing it in a way where I am working for myself and not them. The manner in which I complete the job definition is open to interpretation, where I believe I can benefit from greatly in my career satisfaction.
Day 17 Results:
- Work Productivity - High
- Home Productivity - Med/High
- Energy about challenge - Medium but high by evening
- Physical Energy - Medium/low (some back pain)
- Mental clarity - High
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