The challenges continue
So, still holding to my guns, and getting more ammo as I go. No mistakes, no slip ups. Although I played wii for a bit at a friends, and while that didn't break any of the rules I had established (since my primary goal is to clear my head and not waste time at home and at work)…but I will say, I had some silly rabbits bouncing around in my head the rest of the night, and realized it was not assisting in any 'clearing of the mind' tasks I had set out. Not a big deal, 30 minutes of wii at a single friends gathering I am not going to get up in arms about, but don't think I will do it again during this challenge.
Folks around me just laugh and go 'why' when I say I am going unplugged. I only told one friend at work, but the word trickled out quickly based on my change in habits, or someone making a comment. They get a very flabbergasted look on their face, which just makes me laugh. Comments like 'I can't live without the news'…..and I want to ask "really, cannot live? Are you telling me ANYTHING different will happen in the world if you don't read some news article? Do you think you will be less of a person for not reading the news of today? What about all the negative influences the news has on your own personal beliefs? How bad is the economy truly, and how much drama is created by the news?" But for the most part, I explain my personal reasons, compare it to things like when one goes on a vacation they usually do something similar and it’s a nice reprieve (most people can relate to this comparison it seems). I mention how much work I am getting done at home and at work, and I am only on day 3.
One of the best lines I get is 'you will never make it 30 days'. These are the comments I NEED. These are the things that give me fire and fuel and determination. Maybe it’s a bit misguided to take comments like that into a challenge, but I do, and I use it. Its gotten me through tougher challenges, and I am a better person for it in the end. My discipline has grown with each path I have taken, so all I can say is….bring it on. My beliefs that put me in this challenge are 100% personally driven and decided upon. If I use some fuel in the middle of the challenge to spur me on based on a comment from an outsider, I just have to remember why I am doing this first and foremost.
Three days…doesn't seem very long when written, but the amount of obstacles I have faced seems much more then just three days. Coworkers spouting out 'plane crash in new york river', and my first instinct is to do a quick pull up of cnn.com. Look out the window before leaving for work to see traffic completely snarled, and I want to type in the local news website to look at where the accident is to plan my route. Trying to figure out what to cook for dinner, and I think about the websites I can visit to look up new recipes. A friend asks a question about something, and I am tempted to look up the info so I can give them an answer. People discussing some funny TV show they think I should watch the next night.
I would guess right now I am in the worst of it. I think if I can make it through the weekend, being home for three days from work and still stick by my rules, I think this constant mental battle will diminish. I am currently breaking some SERIOUS habits, likely an addiction of sorts. So I will keep pushing, and its going to get easier. Probably also should plan a few things outside of the house to help set me up for success. Should be doing an outdoor task for most of the day sat or Sunday. Monday, might make plans to see my sister for a couple hours before picking up milk for delivery in my raw milk co-op.
Result of day 3 -
- Work Productivity - Good
- Home Productivity - NA - wasn't home until bedtime
- Energy about challenge - High
- Physical Energy - Medium (feeling better, need sleep catch up now)
- Mental clarity - okay (still battling some decisions about reading and staying on track with tasks)
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