Day 2 & 3 - Balance

Another day done, I think days 1-4 are the hardest so far in my challenges (both 30 day challenges and other various changes I have done). Just sort of that jolt to the system of habits, a whole new day with all new things to think about. I think they all run something like this:

Day one I run on adrenaline and excitement for a new challenge.
Day two I am still pretty excited, but starting to wonder what I am getting into.
Day three I am seriously questioning why I was doing this again, and maybe pondering I was a bit overzealous in my goals.
Day four I am still wondering what I was thinking, but now more accepting, and taking a deep breath for the long haul.

Once the excitement wears off, I remind myself of my goals for the month, refresh the long term goals in my mind and how this challenge applies, and then turn my face into the wind and keep on trucking.

Kind of interesting to see the patterns. A few years prior, I would have been lucky to make it through day 2 or 3. If I did, usually it was because I modified the plan quite a bit...lol...which makes me chuckle.

The act of looking back and seeing how far I have come in just a few years is really something to see for me personally. It gives me such a sense, not really of accomplishment, but more of amazement. I do not see it as an ego filled achievement, but more something of wonder and fascination. If I could bottle that feeling and knowledge and give it to all my friends, family, everyone....I would be overjoyed. I cannot ever seem to put into words what it feels like to know that you can do TRULY whatever you want.....period. Its so hard to tell someone how this feels, without sounding like you are bragging, or worse, it ends up making them feel guilty about what they have not completed.

The bigger piece in all of this, is when I look back at the sea I have crossed, it makes the ocean in front of me seem all that more large and exciting, and I pick up my pace another notch.


Well, on a non philosophical note, here is how my last two days have gone. I have been unable to post as I would like during my lunch hour at work, just too busy. So I am going to switch my posts to the evening, and keep the updates 'same day'. So today covers day two and end of day three so I can catch up:

Day 2 -3
Wake 5 am - Done
Meditate - Done (20 mins)
Work Goals - Done
Daily Blog Entry - Done
Yoga - Done (35 mins & 25 mins)
Evening Prep - Done
Home work time - Done

Very very happy with my results. I have kept to my busy checklist to the letter, and I am rolling through my balance habits.

Meditation is flowing easily, and synchronicity has taken care of any planning on what I should cover in my quiet time. Although, now that I am meditating each morning, I wonder why I thought it would be very hard?

Work has been very busy, but today I finally started to feel like I was making a dent in the backlog. I am really trying to break the stagnant flow at work, where I always have so much work on the to do list, it seems too daunting. I am ready to be clear of that once and for all, not only for the clear head, but so I can continue to work more on my self created projects that motivate me (part of my reasons for this and future challenges). Another reason to not blog at lunch, is I will use that time to continue my progress forward on work tasks. I usually spend a small amount of time a day up from my desk, saying hi to a friend or chatting with my husband (who works 3 cubicles away ironically enough), so its not like I am chained to my desk for 9 hours. :)

I need to firm up some of the weekend schedule, so I don't forget anything (meal planning, shopping, errands, ect).