Day 9 - Balance

Tired today, was not feeling very good, and had the smallest thread in my mind that considered calling in sick to work. It would not have been 100% because I was sick, I could have made it through the day, it was more of a combo of feeling bad and needing a day off.

BUT, when one has to get up at 5 am 100% of the time, meditate, do a few morning checklist items no matter what, suddenly just finishing up and going to work did not seem so bad after all. So I dragged my sorry bum into work, and was actually pretty productive...HA.

Day 9 results
Wake 5 am - Done
Meditate - Done (25 mins)
Work Goals - Done
Daily Blog Entry - Done
Yoga - Done (20 minutes)
Evening Prep - Done
Home work time - Done

Had a nice conversation with the DH tonight, well, more like evolving over the last few days. He has a strong focus at times, to a point that sometimes we struggle balancing other items in our relationship and life. He is happy to work on these issues, and I am happy to give him the freedom to partake in his 'hobbies'. I am careful though, I do not want him to think he needs 'permission' from me to do something he loves and enjoys. Conversely, I also do not want us to grow apart over time . I have talked to him about making this easier, how he can learn to balance our relationship, our home, our loved ones, and have him enjoy his favorite past times all the same.

Our discussions are becoming more relaxed, less defensive the last year or two. Its hard to move past the standard assumptions in relationships, the sort of over commercialized portrayal that the spouse is always out to get the other. That everything is always an attack, a nag, or an order. I prefer to think of us as partners, 100%. Suggestions, open discussions, and solutions are the best path. I love to observe, its true to my nature, and I love to share these observations. Its always hard to verbalize these as curious comments rather then an attack on someone's choices.

Actual definition of the above.....I got a free dinner out, AND got to talk a lot about my rambling brain and having my needs fulfilled.......what more can I ask for? :)

Off to do some planning on my meditations and my home 'work' time, both which are too unfocused right now and its driving me crazy.